Sunday, 27 January 2013
Chicken Or Egg
was browsing on Youtube and saw this. simply cute. i am sure that it is very informative but i am really drawn to the presentation!
I really Give Up!
seriously i dun understand what is wrong with bry sometimes. he is forever looking for attention and can't even sit still for 5minutes.
the chinese teacher complained about him not paying attention and sitting still in class. i scolded him and told him that i dun want to hear this kind of complaint anymore. i even told him not to sit with some of his classmates, who are playful by nature. even when i read to him, he is forever moving about, either his hands or legs while seated. he just can't keep still.
the same old problem of forgetting is coming back again. i repeatedly told him to pack his stationary after use and to make sure that pencils, ruler and eraser are inside the pencil case. he apparently lost his ruler and eraser again. this is despite of repeating my warning amd writing his name on the items just few days ago. i simply dun understand why he keeps misplacing them. i am not being picky here over such small items but hs is going to primary school next year and he doesn't even know how to take care of such simple items, i dun know how he is going to survive primary school.
the boys fought again today. i really hate wkends, i am like the solo solider battling housework, bry (keeping him out of trouble), helping teach dom. now that school is in full swing, there are assessments that dom need to be prepared for. i repeatedly told bry to play or read on his own while i tested dom his spellings. bry just craved for attention every 1-2minutes, disturbing either me or dom. you tell me how to be stress free.
i repeatedly told dom not to play in the masterbed room, he sleeps there with his father, and keeps his treasures there too. i understand dom feels that by playing there it is he and his father special place. but the problem is that bry will also want to go in and chances are that bry will do something which will angers them. what am i to do? keep dragging him out? keep scolding him? keeping telling him to come out? nothing works untill anger explosion! that is the pure and simple fact! and it happens almost every wkend!
it happened again! i was in the toilet and knew that bry went into the masterbed rm again. next thing you know, explosion and everyone got chased out. the same old problem with dom opening the drawer and bry cant't resists to stick his fingers in, and dom closing the drawer to keep bry out and almost hurting bry fingers. i knew it will happen but why should i rush out of the toilet? why? these two never learn and i am getting sick and tired of dragging and punishing bry. dom should also be punished for disobeying me and playing in the room. i am just so damn sick and tired!
the best thing is that i blew up some saturday ago over the floor not mopped. before you start saying i am really some picky b****. let me tell you, with the exception of the father, boys and i sleep on mattresses that are on the floor. so i am not being a b**** for wanting the floor to be mopped daily. i also want to get some bedframes but the floor still have to be mopped. it is just too dusty even though i sweep and mop daily. i went out with kids and parents, he has always mopped when we were out. but that saturday he didn't, i think he was too busy surfing the internet. when i kicked a fuss, cos dom complained why the floor was so dusty, his reply was " you want to mop until when? for the next ten years?" then the issue of how he feels that i "chased away" the domestic help, so now "i deserved it!" WTF! last time got domestic help, he left everything and kids to me and help, while he busied himself with reading newspaper every wkend! now he is surgically attached to his smartphone and newspaper all wk!
WTH is "i deserved it!" i deserved to be treated like something to fulfill his needs? deserved to teach kids and get high blood pressure? he doesn't even teach them, even if he teaches, he is juggling smartphone and teaching. wow talk about what a busy man!!!!! i work myself to the bone and i deserved it? i cook and clean sun-fri, what is just 1 mopping session on sat to him? i deserved it???? i want to know what then does he deserve?
come home from work, got dinner. clothes get washed. 70-90% of kids teaching done by me. 90% cleaning done by me. on top of that i still go work at nite, twice a wk isn't a walk in the park.
you tell me. i deserved it? i deserved to put up with all the frustrations of kids teachings. i deserved to crack my head to plan what to cook for dinner. i deserved to plan my shifts around all the school holidays. i deserved to clean and wash. what does he deserve? to disappear for hours with dom and only reappear just before dinner time? to encourage dom selfish behaviour?
WHAT DOES HE DESERVED?
the chinese teacher complained about him not paying attention and sitting still in class. i scolded him and told him that i dun want to hear this kind of complaint anymore. i even told him not to sit with some of his classmates, who are playful by nature. even when i read to him, he is forever moving about, either his hands or legs while seated. he just can't keep still.
the same old problem of forgetting is coming back again. i repeatedly told him to pack his stationary after use and to make sure that pencils, ruler and eraser are inside the pencil case. he apparently lost his ruler and eraser again. this is despite of repeating my warning amd writing his name on the items just few days ago. i simply dun understand why he keeps misplacing them. i am not being picky here over such small items but hs is going to primary school next year and he doesn't even know how to take care of such simple items, i dun know how he is going to survive primary school.
the boys fought again today. i really hate wkends, i am like the solo solider battling housework, bry (keeping him out of trouble), helping teach dom. now that school is in full swing, there are assessments that dom need to be prepared for. i repeatedly told bry to play or read on his own while i tested dom his spellings. bry just craved for attention every 1-2minutes, disturbing either me or dom. you tell me how to be stress free.
i repeatedly told dom not to play in the masterbed room, he sleeps there with his father, and keeps his treasures there too. i understand dom feels that by playing there it is he and his father special place. but the problem is that bry will also want to go in and chances are that bry will do something which will angers them. what am i to do? keep dragging him out? keep scolding him? keeping telling him to come out? nothing works untill anger explosion! that is the pure and simple fact! and it happens almost every wkend!
it happened again! i was in the toilet and knew that bry went into the masterbed rm again. next thing you know, explosion and everyone got chased out. the same old problem with dom opening the drawer and bry cant't resists to stick his fingers in, and dom closing the drawer to keep bry out and almost hurting bry fingers. i knew it will happen but why should i rush out of the toilet? why? these two never learn and i am getting sick and tired of dragging and punishing bry. dom should also be punished for disobeying me and playing in the room. i am just so damn sick and tired!
the best thing is that i blew up some saturday ago over the floor not mopped. before you start saying i am really some picky b****. let me tell you, with the exception of the father, boys and i sleep on mattresses that are on the floor. so i am not being a b**** for wanting the floor to be mopped daily. i also want to get some bedframes but the floor still have to be mopped. it is just too dusty even though i sweep and mop daily. i went out with kids and parents, he has always mopped when we were out. but that saturday he didn't, i think he was too busy surfing the internet. when i kicked a fuss, cos dom complained why the floor was so dusty, his reply was " you want to mop until when? for the next ten years?" then the issue of how he feels that i "chased away" the domestic help, so now "i deserved it!" WTF! last time got domestic help, he left everything and kids to me and help, while he busied himself with reading newspaper every wkend! now he is surgically attached to his smartphone and newspaper all wk!
WTH is "i deserved it!" i deserved to be treated like something to fulfill his needs? deserved to teach kids and get high blood pressure? he doesn't even teach them, even if he teaches, he is juggling smartphone and teaching. wow talk about what a busy man!!!!! i work myself to the bone and i deserved it? i cook and clean sun-fri, what is just 1 mopping session on sat to him? i deserved it???? i want to know what then does he deserve?
come home from work, got dinner. clothes get washed. 70-90% of kids teaching done by me. 90% cleaning done by me. on top of that i still go work at nite, twice a wk isn't a walk in the park.
you tell me. i deserved it? i deserved to put up with all the frustrations of kids teachings. i deserved to crack my head to plan what to cook for dinner. i deserved to plan my shifts around all the school holidays. i deserved to clean and wash. what does he deserve? to disappear for hours with dom and only reappear just before dinner time? to encourage dom selfish behaviour?
WHAT DOES HE DESERVED?
Friday, 18 January 2013
Glass Balls And More
i maybe working part time but my full time job is looking after kids, kids learning, house, cooking etc.
there just isn't enough of me to go around sometimes and not enough time for me to complete all that needs to be done.
now let's relax our mind.
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
Feeling Blue
i been having this thought for a long time, how much more can i take all these. looking after kids, catering to their needs, teaching them, running the house, working etc. yeah i know, don't all mothers also do the same? sometimes i just feel like i am alone, braving and facing all these.
i am forever running, running errands, running around kids, running to finish the housework, running to finish work. just running and running and running out of time sometimes. non-stop running. and now i am starting to feel that all these running around is really making me physical very very tired. i want to stop but can't.
no point in talking about how a typical day for me is like. the thing that really sets me off is having to manage kids (dom now) after working through the nite. mentally and physically exhausted, coming home to coach him and deal with house. thoughts of revision and what is lacking in the house pantry fill my mind, thoughts of cooking lunch and dinner fill my mind, thoughts of what the kids will be needing or doing in the following week fill my mind etc.
when i coach kids, they dun pay attention. that is probably the final straw. i am not aiming them to be scholars but there isn't time and manpower to teach them. take bry, i only have after dinner (10-15mins) to coach him some simple language and maths. he is in childcare all day and when dom is back, i need to make sure he doesn't distrub dom or i have something else to do. as for dom, there is only the morning 1.5hrs to teach him the spelling and finish up any homework (not completed before he sleep, he in school from 12-6.30pm), and revision.
can you blame me for being short tempered sometimes? or for that matter, having a headache, which i suffer from time to time? yeah maybe i am not healthy blab blab, but i just feel crushed by the sheer amount of things. the best thing is that somebody dared to point out that old ppl (grandparents generation or older) say headaches are caused by not drying one's hair thoroughly before sleeping.
hey hey hey hey! you know what i think? i think headaches are caused by having to juggle so many balls while running out of time. and if you dun have headaches, well good for you and it also shows that you are either brainless, simple minded or have little cares/things to worry about.
spend a morning in my shoes then talk. you wouldn't even last 1hour. cos you are nothing but a man-made problem, a man making problems for other ppl.
Saturday, 12 January 2013
We Are On Fibre Optic Speed
yup, we are now on fibre optic speed for internet.
i no longer has to torture my beloved Samsung Galaxy S2 or consume my mobile data allowance to surf, or even worst, do all my surfing at work..... *horror*
i can now surf and update at home.
i no longer has to torture my beloved Samsung Galaxy S2 or consume my mobile data allowance to surf, or even worst, do all my surfing at work..... *horror*
i can now surf and update at home.
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