I really Give Up!

seriously i dun understand what is wrong with bry sometimes. he is forever looking for attention and can't even sit still for 5minutes.

the chinese teacher complained about him not paying attention and sitting still in class. i scolded him and told him that i dun want to hear this kind of complaint anymore. i even told him not to sit with some of his classmates, who are playful by nature. even when i read to him, he is forever moving about, either his hands or legs while seated. he just can't keep still.

the same old problem of forgetting is coming back again. i repeatedly told him to pack his stationary after use and to make sure that pencils, ruler and eraser are inside the pencil case. he apparently lost his ruler and eraser again. this is despite of repeating my warning amd writing his name on the items just few days ago. i simply dun understand why he keeps misplacing them. i am not being picky here over such small items but hs is going to primary school next year and he doesn't even know how to take care of such simple items, i dun know how he is going to survive primary school.

the boys fought again today. i really hate wkends, i am like the solo solider battling housework, bry (keeping him out of trouble), helping teach dom. now that school is in full swing, there are assessments that dom need to be prepared for. i repeatedly told bry to play or read on his own while i tested dom his spellings. bry just craved for attention every 1-2minutes, disturbing either me or dom. you tell me how to be stress free.

i repeatedly told dom not to play in the masterbed room, he sleeps there with his father, and keeps his treasures there too. i understand dom feels that by playing there it is he and his father special place. but the problem is that bry will also want to go in and chances are that bry will do something which will angers them. what am i to do? keep dragging him out? keep scolding him? keeping telling him to come out? nothing works untill anger explosion! that is the pure and simple fact! and it happens almost every wkend!

it happened again! i was in the toilet and knew that bry went into the masterbed rm again. next thing you know, explosion and everyone got chased out. the same old problem with dom opening the drawer and bry cant't resists to stick his fingers in, and dom closing the drawer to keep bry out and almost hurting bry fingers. i knew it will happen but why should i rush out of the toilet? why? these two never learn and i am getting sick and tired of dragging and punishing bry. dom should also be punished for disobeying me and playing in the room. i am just so damn sick and tired!

the best thing is that i blew up some saturday ago over the floor not mopped. before you start saying i am really some picky b****. let me tell you, with the exception of the father, boys and i sleep on mattresses that are on the floor. so i am not being a b**** for wanting the floor to be mopped daily. i also want to get some bedframes but the floor still have to be mopped. it is just too dusty even though i sweep and mop daily. i went out with kids and parents, he has always mopped when we were out. but that saturday he didn't, i think he was too busy surfing the internet. when i kicked a fuss, cos dom complained why the floor was so dusty, his reply was " you want to mop until when? for the next ten years?" then the issue of how he feels that i "chased away" the domestic help, so now "i deserved it!" WTF! last time got domestic help, he left everything and kids to me and help, while he busied himself with reading newspaper every wkend! now he is surgically attached to his smartphone and newspaper all wk!

WTH is "i deserved it!" i deserved to be treated like something to fulfill his needs? deserved to teach kids and get high blood pressure? he doesn't even teach them, even if he teaches, he is juggling smartphone and teaching. wow talk about what a busy man!!!!! i work myself to the bone and i deserved it? i cook and clean sun-fri, what is just 1 mopping session on sat to him? i deserved it???? i want to know what then does he deserve?

come home from work, got dinner. clothes get washed. 70-90% of kids teaching done by me. 90% cleaning done by me. on top of that i still go work at nite, twice a wk isn't a walk in the park.

you tell me. i deserved it? i deserved to put up with all the frustrations of kids teachings. i deserved to crack my head to plan what to cook for dinner. i deserved to plan my shifts around all the school holidays. i deserved to clean and wash. what does he deserve? to disappear for hours with dom and only reappear just before dinner time? to encourage dom selfish behaviour?

WHAT DOES HE DESERVED?